The Heartbreak Kid

Remember what i said about hindsight? and that it determines your life? well unfortunately it caused me to repeat a pattern in my life that has become all to familiar. in turn, it has spoiled something that should have been good. past mistakes have now brought this cloud of doubt and depression over my head once again and i have no one else to blame but unfortunately myself. well, i can think of some other people who have contributed to my "so called life" but that would be merely spreading the butter of discontent on the toasted bread of my denial. It takes a real man to admit his mistakes, i mean, what would Robert Mitchum do in my situation? probably drive off a cliff with 100 proof in his trunk. sometimes i wish there was a "Mans book to resolving any conflict or situation" hmm, i think i hear a light bulb turn on somewhere in the cavern of my mind. well at this point, maybe along with that bulb coming on i might get an epiphany that will miraculously give me the superpower to resist hindsight or use it to tremendous effect...ps.if i got to choose i would either be Hiro Nakamura or that dude that creates black holes..depending on my mood. do you know what the anti emo is? the cheerleader, she can pine and slash her wrists and heal. (this does not mean i advocate that kind of behaviour, just the hair and the music, but only just).

"I tried so hard to follow, but didn't catch the half of what had gone wrong, said "I don't know what I can save you from." -Erlend Oye

Babe..In the Words of the Zep..Saiyonara

Isnt it amazing how hindsight is such a powerful yet sobering thought mechanism? you look back and realise, damn, if i only i knew then what i know now...it can get painful sometimes. Most of the time after achieving said hindsight however, it is always possible to make the same mistake again and then kick yourself twice as hard. 'Fool me once, shame on you , fool me twice and its time you start running whilst i cock my shotgun'. But like i said, hindsight is powerful, it can enforce and make you base every other future decision in regards to your life either subconciously or quite explicitly. maybe hindsight is the basis of wisdom itself, probably why the smartest people are those who have suffered the most...maybe.

It depends how you live your life, either you learn from your mistakes and limit your productivity or possibly gamble on the same chance and risk losing again or gaining more. somehow im thinking of a poker context in regards to that last statement but it can relate to alot of things, poker, relationships either with friends, family or your other half, choice of consumption in terms of buying things or even simply which side to get up on your bed. Im lucky with that last one, mines against the wall so i eliminate the agony of choice from the moment i stir and get up, leaving the rest of lifes obstacles to hinder or advance me. However you look at it, hindsight could be your best friend or your enemy, its always there either guiding you or restraining you along lifes little journeys. if it is and your frustrated with feeling trapped, take that risk, if your the other way inclined however, maybe tell your other half he/she might want to be careful the next time they get up.

"How could you be so heartless? How could you be so Dr Evil? your bringing out a side of me that I dont know.." - Kanye West

The Comeback Kid

Well its like dusting off an old photoframe with a goofy picture of yourself taking a look at my blog since the last time i was in virtuality. Geez whats happened since ive last been here? the leader of free world is an African American, Woolworths has disappeared and its now 2009 meaning that we are that bit closer to running out of fuel on the planet thus creating the possibility of using your beloved car as a glorified compost heap.

Cynical? abit, maybe I should lighten up, right, I actually forgot about this blog completely but now im going to use it as my rambling den. I remember when i use to take this blogging stuff seriously and that it mattered who read it but really,who does?Ill instead try to make it at least, an interesting pitstop in this universal webtacular highway. a haven for passers by who get lost in their mundane lives for abit and decide to fuel up (no pun intended) and rest their minds from the worries and static of this world with the amusement or beigeness of my writing. when i write, i get ideas and formulate long winding thoughts that meander between creativity and absurdity that might eventually lead to action or inaction. Maybe if someone read abit about my virtual exploits they might get inspiration, comfort or even some form of familiarity with these words.I mean in this day and age, where else can you get insights into another persons mind for free and secretly judge them without having that power that Mel Gibson had in "What Women Want"? (if i had that power my life i feel would not have made me cynical...i think). The phrase comeback kid has been used to describe Bill Clinton, in the sense of this block of words, its a return to a virtual alter ego that allows form and fluidity without the restraints of our bio degradable forms. Lets Ride..


"Reach Out and Touch Faith..Your Own, Personal Jesus" - Dave Gahan